cruth, PLEASE, don't waste your time on this site! It is full of paranoid, hypocritical, closed-minded, sheep-like bipeds who feed off each other's negativity! They can see a cult in a glass of water!
Believe me, I have tried reason and personal experience with them, and they JUST DON'T GET IT! They haven't got a clue: They are like lemmings!
I will say that I have done it the same way as you. We are cut of the same cloth. I understand. Just celebrated 8 years. So my only advice to you is to keep on doing what you're doing and don't frustrate yourself with this site. You will only get a headache.
But if you are easily entertained, as I am, then please continue to visit! It is most entertaining to 'wind'em up and watch'em go', but I have tired of it. I really have better things to do. I monitor 'them' (from the "FACT"net planet, LOL).